笑，就是对人的祝福
人家看见你笑，他们也会被影响得开心
他们也会对别人笑
那么别人也会开心
就这样，帮助世界。

与其帮着这些不珍惜你的人
不如帮那些没手没脚需要补习老师的

:)

I have a nice chat with my friends today.

Really nice chat I wish it could last longer and wish we are all living in the same house.

they are my good buddies Jeremiah and Nasa!!

the interesting part is this conversation is between Christian, Muslim and me a Buddhist but we talk without boundaries, share everything, look at everything in every aspects and everyone is so cool and more n more topic coming out, enjoyable,
it's been a while I experience this kinda of nice talk :)

I'm so happy ASWARA still have a few open minded and positive, healthy mind people

everyday we breath, everyday we learn

Thank God so much for giving this grace :))

I'm happy today

life is great

about my situation - i'm not doing any good with this health problem . 1 more problem occur - blood circulation mess up. it occured since 1 month ago
so, I feel easily cold nowdays.

all this while i'm bearing it very tough by myself. with the trauma I had...all by myself.
and I can feel God is crying with me and giving me strength when I need.


God knows who is irresponsible. destroy a life, yet enjoying there and never want to care.
But I don't hate him. everyday I pray to God to love him and save him. make him be at the path near to God instead of Jin control his body and devil on his mind.
Please have love in your heart instead of want to see people suffer.
when you wanna see people suffer, that's when - for sure - devil's attitude, devil is controlling you.


no matter what happened. today it lighten up me abit
i received this gift in valentine day (as shown in picture). it's a perfume for me... :)))

actually, I am being loved by alot of ppl who care, and from positive environment, success ppl.
Thank you God. I'm being heard :))
God, pls save all those bad ppl , change them to be good. save me too.
continue to guide all of us, your creations, to the truth path..
so that this world is a comfort place for us to live in.

I'm just a God's creation. God can do anything to us anytime.
God loves us.
When I cry, God cries with me.
I feel that God is near nowadays..
I never want God creations to go down, I can't change them to be good either, all this is in the power of God
God can change anything
I can only ask God to change all his creations to be good...
continue to show me the path, always too...
and love all of us.
I love God 天。。。

愛情不是轰轰烈烈の誓言

而是平平淡淡の陪伴

in this world, big animal eats small animal, small animals eat grass. people are using each other.But Lord Buddha sacrificed himself for the eagle to eat his flesh. when you grow a heart to think about others and lost something for yourself, it's a great action, for the world nowdays which is hard to see this kind of heart anymore...

When you sacrificed for others, they gained alot. but do they appreciate and care about how much you had lost for them? does he care if I'm becoming disabled or retard? if not really, I'm not being loved. If they call you crazy or said you're thinking too much, it obviously proof that they aren't thinking about you too. not responsible? let it be...it's their problem.

I loved truthfully. I had never break any promise before for my life until now. all the people who know me knows how a person I am.

do u remember how I cried when you wanna start all the things? do u remember how I feel guilty? and, do you remember how I responsible and loyal and holding the trust after we've started. i'm not blaming u, just to let u know i am a person who loved truthfully and honestly.

I am forever May Ling.

It's fun to be with me. people need fun. they come for fun. trust by the eyes, not by the ears.....never by the ears again.

my eyes are all teary when I'm writing. do people know how it's like? do people know how it's like when I'm calling help, help....protect me...every night, everyday, but I never been cared.

I just wanna continue to live after what will my health become after this, and I know all that happened i have to be so very strong to face this. of course, on my own feet. yes.

my 2nd bro called... he is shocked and sad when he 1st heard this and..... he just wanna come back and gives me a hug.....he's the only brother who hugged me always when I'm small.

and yeah, there's only one May Ling.

Go May Ling Go.

Namo Amitabha. 

Sunday ...

1. when you're in the condition of no job, no money, do you noticed all the girls are just toying and using you for pleasure and for their own selfishness? but NOT until you met me, who truly sacrificed for you...but u hurt me and let go of me at the end...

2. next time when you already have money and job, of course you can find girls or they will come to you, but will you find a girl who love you sincerely anymore? (never care about your job and properties) u won't....

I bleed so much, I got bius, could you find any other girl who are willing to bleed for you anymore (when you're in your condition of no money, no job, but she still truly loved you) and still think for you? do you tell ppl that you made me bleed? no, right? because you are afraid that people will blame you. so now you just leave me, made me suffer the pain myself... of course, it's not you who bleed, you won't understand how the suffers I need to go through alone...of course you said it's okay to be alone...well you just don't love me I guess...it's okay anyway, I will still stand up. just that, you just lost someone who loved you from the bottom of her heart.

you won't find girl who love you like I do anymore....

my 1st appeareance in tv ad

in case u all duno, I'm inside this ad. it went very fast, i just turned out very quick.

i appeared in 0.02, 0.17 and 0.23 if u can recognise which is me lol. if i never tell my frens i'm inside they also never notice.

20.8.2011

I was in my home in malacca.

Suddenly the ppl spread the mosquito poison gas at my house area

so i closed the doors and windows. how also gas still go into the house

i'm incapable to close all 3 floors windows of my house before the gas came in

suddenly my 3rd elder bro came back n yelled at me like an animal very very loud

"DUNO CLOSE ALL WINDOWS AR!! SIBEH JIALAT U!!"

I felt hurt suddenly, I duno where i did wrong to desearve for a yell like this straight to my face?

i back malacca only,being treated like this?

this is not the 1st time

until when i'm gonna be treated like this??

修行中

长大中。。。。

经着种种挫折与堕落中。。。

见晓朋友的真正性格中。。。

见晓谁是真正还在关心的朋友。。。

我继续，不忘记朋友